Introduction to Dark Night, Star Light
Throughout my entire early life from childhood to adolescent to early adulthood I have had it rough. It seemed life was not fair, and that life was too cruel for a girl who only wanted love in the world and for the world to be loved.
So for a long time, I prayed for peace. Peace in my life and peace for the world.
But in order to know peace, I had to know chaos.
I always knew I was meant to be a healer, save the world, change the world – when my dad asked me what I wanted to do with my life and I answered I wanted to practice
the art of healing.
He said great, “you want to be a witch”.
I laughed and said no, I wanted to pursue medicine.
Little did I know, I was meant for so much more than being a physician.
My purpose was not to mend your broken bones and mend you back to health. I was called to heal your broken spirits and mend you back to love.
I was to heal the inner being in you rather than the external being of you.
I was meant to heal in an unorthodox way;
with words.
Through my stories of personal experiences and alternate fantasy lands with much brighter plots but hidden messages revealing each life lesson I’ve learnt in my own life – hopefully my words have some strength to give to you where it can transform something in your life to gain you
more knowledge,
more hope,
and maybe more light.
They say for a healer you must first heal.
And in order to heal you must heal from something.
So I healed from everything small and big, and unfortunately some of the worst things life could possibly throw at you.
Examples such as
betrayal
jealousy
mental, emotional, spiritual,
physical and sexual abuse
neglect
abandonment
gaslighting
manipulation
and so much more hurt and so much more pain.
I never saw the big picture life had for me while going through every dark corner and facing every shadow it offered.
But looking back now I understand the concept of why everything had to unfold the way it did in my life, and I am grateful for the light within me that never gave up – even though there were times I was truly tested.
I am confident enough to say I’ve learnt my lessons and have healed through every situation brought to me -to the point where I no longer need to heal but just regulate my mind and my heart.
As I believe the healing journey is a continuous evolutionary path and therefore, know that there’s always something that will creep up and need healing.
However, I can say that I have healed from enough that hopefully you can start weaving your own bandaid and also put yourself back together.
Because when you reach a point where you’re ready to see how far your mending has come and slowly unravel the bandage, seeing the scars instead of the wounds – it is the most magical, relieving and rewarding feeling to exist.
I see it as hope once invisible, now in visible.
So fortunately for me and you, I’m still here so you no longer have to be alone in the war you carry in your heart.
